Pieces of my brain #3

On a cool windy evening in San Francisco, we found ourselves at the corner of Fell and Van Ness. Across the street, there was the brightly lit condo tower.  We decided to investigate, partly to get out of the wind, partly because Tracy’s near-legendary curiosity leads her almost anywhere a  human can go without encountering armed guards.

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TJ at work

The lobby was in that high commercial modern style favored by builders going after millennials, particularly tech-enabled milliennials. Lots of clean blank walls; a lobby desk shaped like an emaciated shark.  There was a tree growing out of a hole in the desk where the shark’s anus would be.

There were perhaps 30 people in the lobby, clustered in conversational groups or checking their phones. We entered, bringing with us a gust of cold air. Everybody turned towards us. It was like one of those science fiction movies where almost everyone (except our hero) is controlled by an alien intelligence. They all looked at us without expression. A telepathic whisper went through the room: Old People among us. Try to stay calm.

We walked around a bit. We tried to make eye contact, but no one would look up. They were afraid the old was contagious. You don’t want to get the old on you; it can decay your teeth and turn your hips into bone-on-bone battlegrounds. No matter how hard you scrub, the old lingers.

This is not the first time my gray beard has provoked silent horror in young people. Many are kind (the old enjoy kindness), although they often feel the need to explain to us things we already know. “The white zone,” they will say considerately, “is for loading and unloading only.” Sometimes that’s entirely charming.

Sometimes: Not.


Fifteen minutes later, we were standing in a stairwell of an old second-floor dance studio. We were waiting to be let in to the space, now repurposed as a theater. Once again, we were the oldest people in the building, but this time we were ignored. Everyone was ignoring everyone else, in the manner of people standing in an elevator. I stared at my phone for a while, but I didn’t want to text anyone. I was just being pretentious.

On the steps below us, four people played a version of charades. One held up a phone to his/her forehead. On the phone was a word. The others tried to get the phone holder to say the word, using only gestures. Splendid idea; this is technology we can believe in.

Then the door above opened, and we poured into the space.

Many years ago, I spent some time as a non-sexual groupie of The Committee, a now-legendary improv comedy group started by Alan and Jessica Myerson, late of the Second City in Chicago. Unlike the Second City, The Committee did not turn out famous comedians who went on to  success. Still, I thought Larry Hankin was the funniest man alive, and Gary Goodrow was a comic genius. Anyway: What I saw in that large room reminded me of The Committee.

Imagine six extremely energetic humans. Imagine a bare stage, minimum props, primitive lighting.  Imagine lots of running around and yelling and standing still and whispering, all at break-neck pace. The players are known collectively as the San Francisco Neo-Futurists.  Their show is called “Too Much Light Makes The Baby Go Blind.” It is not improvised;  each of the “30 Plays in 60 Minutes” is written and rehearsed, although a lot of the writing process does seem to have to do with improvisation. The show is funny, sometimes hysterically so, but it’s also poignant and angry and surrealistic.

What reminded me of The Committee was the sense of possibility. The Neo-Futurists have been around since the 80s, but I don’t think the people in the cast can make that claim.  There’s talent up on stage; more importantly, there’s enthusiasm for the possibilities of theater. Ryan Patrick Welsh is clearly the first among equals, but every performer is  enthusiastic and committed.

Here are some of the play titles: “David Mamet’s The Little Mermaid;” “Robo Libido Fugue State:” “Questions for a Twinkie;” “How I Bore Mission Bartenders;” and “WHAT I ASSUME GETTING YOUR PERIOD  IS LIKE ACCORDING TO THE WONDERFUL WORLD  OF TV ADVERTISEMENTS”.

You could spend your entertainment dollar on Meryl Streep pretending to be somebody or other, or, for just a little more, you could see The San Francisco Neo-Futurists. Come early, stand in the stairwell, laugh unreservedly. There’s a soupcon of audience participation (nothing embarrassing, although I was asked politely to eat one bite of a dreadful sandwich, which I did, for which I was called a “hero,” a double-decker sandwich joke) but mostly not; this is not some Vegas hypnotist’s show.

Out by 11. Steps away from BART. Everything perfect.


Last time, in pursuit of happiness, I published a few jokes I’d picked up here and there. (I found 500 banjo jokes, none of them funny). My friend Carol Carr sent me a few she’d saved over the years. If you hang out with the science fiction community, you may know Carol, or have heard of her. She is not, by the way, the Carol Carr who killed two of her sons. Just clarifying.


What do you get when you cross an elephant with a peanut butter sandwich?  Three elephants that stick to the roof of your mouth, and one peanut butter sandwich that never forgets.

What do you get when you cross a Mafia hit man with a performance artist?  Someone who makes you an offer you can’t understand.

“I just learned the answer to the question asked in Hamlet, “What is he to Hecuba, or Hecuba to him?”  Answer: “The shortest volumes in the encyclopedia.”

A Jew gives a blind man his first piece of matzo.  The blind man takes it and rubs his fingers over the surface for several seconds, then says, “Who wrote this shit?”


This very morning, I was driving home from random errands (grocery store, bank) when I thought: I bet Pancho is in my wire basket now. He’s there most every morning; you can set your watch by it. And then I thought: I really do think a lot about Pancho’s habits.

His smiles, his frowns, his ups, his downs, are second nature to me now.

And that’s strange, don’t you think? I can see the point in petting a cat, snuggling with a cat, watching a cat doing cat antics — sure. That’s pet ownership: The cross-species exchange of affection. But I think I have something different: The cross-species crush.

When  I was a young man and subject to crushes, everything about my love object was fascinating. Her handwriting, her lunch preferences, the books she read, the music she listened to, her feelings about insects and aviation and deep soulful kissing. And maybe I would bicycle by her house, not in a stalking way because I didn’t actually stop, except that one time I saw her watering the lawn. “I was in the neighborhood…” I said, which was true. I was in the neighborhood.

And now I have memorized Pancho’s routine. He’s extremely predictable. Cats may be independent creatures, but they like their habits — as do most humans. Habits are comfortable; they free your mind to think of other things. Each night I close up the house, check the doors and windows, straighten up the kitchen, let Pancho in, turn out the lights. Pancho will inevitably check his food bowl, then amble up the stairs, where he curls up on the bed in Tracy’s office.

Once in a while, that doesn’t happen, and I worry that Pancho is sick. But no, he’s exercising his free will — when he remembers that he has free will. I have free will too, but I’ve lived in the same place for 35 years.

I brought the groceries in and checked. Sure enough:


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Find the missing number on the clock!


Photography by Tracy Johnston, except the one that obviously isn’t

Behind-the-scenes competence by Michelle Mizera



37 thoughts on “Pieces of my brain #3

    1. Ah, if only you, @Adair Lara, would follow Jon’s lead and start a blog to succor those of us who still pine for your Chronicle columns. To this day I invoke an affirmation from you whenever I feel guilty about the hours I waste on trashy detective novels or pointless daydreaming: “You are your own fine consequence.”


    2. Another vote for subverting the Chronicle’s back page. Come back, Adair. You must miss it at least some? Jon! I loved your take on the play. Too much fun by far. And the resurrection of a good joke? Genius. I really had forgotten how much pleasure they give me. The start of a new mania. It’s 2018. Extra! Extra! Good Jokes overtake Pokemon for the first time.

      Thanks as usual.


  1. Random reactions:
    Still laughing over the blind man and the matzo joke. More, please!
    Yay! I KNEW you were a Mac guy, but what’s with the old-style clunky black keyboard, and the clock in the window with no 5?
    Anyone who likes and tolerates cats as much as you do is my kind of human being.


      1. Yep, I zoomed in with my iMac Retina and found it lying atop some stuff just above the Pasadena Tournament of Roses thingie. As for keyboards, I’ve used just about every type out there, even on-screen touch keyboards. I’m typing this on the new Apple rechargeable wireless keyboard, the best yet. But I understand why some people can never get over the feel of a punching a key and watching the arm fly up and smack the paper curled around the platen on a manual typewriter with that oh-so-satisfying sound of a thought being driven home. Which reminds me of the Army Times reporter back in the Eighties who balked mightily at using a newfangled computer keyboard … until the newfangled IT guys fixed him up with a sound card that made noises just like his old manual typewriter every time he literally pounded a key.

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  2. We miss you, Jon. Please keep up these posts.

    On Wed, Aug 24, 2016 at 1:18 PM, Jon Carroll Prose wrote:

    > joncarrollprose posted: “On a cool windy evening in San Francisco, we > found ourselves at the corner of Fell and Van Ness. Across the street, > there was the brightly lit condo tower. We decided to investigate, partly > to get out of the wind, partly because Tracy’s near-legendary cu” >


  3. Out of Time

    My old clock used to tell the time
    and subdivide diurnity;
    but now its lost both hands and chime
    and only tells eternity.

    ~Piet Hein

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  4. You’re ageing like good wine; Aging? Doesn’t look right. You’re getting old like good wine. Who would want to drink… “old” wine. One of these days let’s here from Tracy, OK? Same for Pancho.


    1. droll. you just have the gift of droll (among other gifts.) am forwarding to alan myerson.


  5. I agree with all these random readers, each missing you in our own way, each eagerly clicking on your latest set of seemingly random observations that give us a sense of you, and a sense of ourselves. And a sense of Pancho, of course. I could almost hear Rex Harrison in that “My Fair Lady” reference– I’ve Grown Accustomed to Her Fur?
    My mother, who was 90 when she died in January, loved that play. In the manner of people who have gotten a bad case of the old, she would re-tell her favorite anecdotes many times; one was about the reviewer who said, in 1956 or so, “that Rex Harrison sure talks a good song.”


  6. Wonderful post. My eyes opened wide upon reading “Habits are comfortable; they free your mind to think of other things.”

    Well of course — why didn’t I think of that? “Habits” are so often denigrated as lazy, unimaginative, and unproductive. We’re told to avoid habit, to constantly try new things and thus avoid digging those deep ruts that might define and constrict us as sentient beings — and indeed, new things are good to try… in moderation.

    As I stumble into the gray mists of retirement, I raise a glass to “habits,” which free my mind to fly… and to sleeping cats, of course.

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  7. “You don’t want to get the old on you”. A horrible yet great line.

    So glad to see Pancho, if only his back. And very glad you love him so much. A cat brings out the very best in most people.
    SO glad to be able to read you Jon.
    You are a one of a kind writer.

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  8. Working road construction in North Dakota. North Dakota has now outlawed those big round hay bales. The cattle couldn’t get a square meal.


  9. It’s odd, The Old. When I was a mid-millenial (previous millenium), it wasn’t quite like that. There was that “don’t-trust-anyone-over-30” deal, sure, but that was just shorthand for something cultural and political. In my karass (thanks for helping keep that one alive. Live by the foma!) at least, we weren’t all that wary/afraid of the old. The Youth Tribe accepted, even wanted, oldsters around. If they were hip enough, of course.
    In Berkeley, to take one village, the Med on any morning was full of young- and oldsters. There was happy mingling, BSing and reciprocal digging all around. Also smoking. Merritt College and even UCB classes had plenty of elderlies. And now that I are one it does seem otherwise, as you have nicely limned. I blame technology/the internet/social media, the public school system, advertising, rap and income inequality. Get off my lawn. Dagnabbit. Thanks Obama.


  10. Hey Jon,

    The other day I was on the phone with my sister, and she asked how the weather was up here in beautiful downtown Oregon, and I replied without thinking: “It’s raining like a pig!” There was a dead silence for a couple of seconds, and then she started laughing so hard she choked. You planted that mixed metaphorical seed somewhere in the Byzantine alleyways of my memory banks decades ago, and it just somehow spontaneously popped out of its own accord at precisely the right moment! It must have been lurking there for years, just waiting for the opportune second to pounce. And pounce it did with spectacular effect! I owe you one, Jon!

    We Miss You, Jon,

    Bill Prince


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